Wenesday 23/04/2008. dear diary

Dear diary Today seems like the worst living day of my life... it started off great but little did I know my world as i knew it will crash and burn like the 9/11 . Many people will not know how i feel today, for I can hide my tears far away from what you can physically see. Well you proberly wondering what the freak has happened to make such a Joyfull girl cry a thousand blood=felt tears... Well it all began when I made coffee for my older brother, and my mother and him we talking about something (and you know me.. i want to know everything). I begged them to tell me what they were talking about (what a fucking stupid mistake i made!). Falling to my knees with a million quetions running through my head, tears just waiting to flood out! I scream: 'it cannot be! ' My youth ministry split up... it might sound like such a stupid thing to cry about. But they are my only friends, my spiritual mother is leaving me! I wanted her to see me grow up. My life has collapsed, things will never be the same! Many people have lefted me in the past 2 months and now i've lost the only most important thing in my life.... My God Today was the day my life will never be the same Wednesday 23/04/2008 Its days like this when I ask.... What did i do wrong, and yell out. I'M SO SORRY! Just when i think its all over... Somthing even worse has to happen!